This announcement is one that I’ve pushed off making for quite awhile. But unfortunately sometimes we all have to admit that we can’t go on and that time has come for me.
Since late last year, I’ve been dealing with some personal issues in the background unrelated to trading (not anything like finances, addiction or disease, just an unfortunate life change). I’ve mentioned something along that line once or twice but have each time opted to continue marching forward, frankly because I love this community and the people in it. But over time I’ve watched myself become less and less able to be “me” as more and more of the unhappiness creeps in. The end result has been that now-a-days, I’m not here even when I am.
ESSC took a lot out of me and its something that I haven’t quite moved past if I’m being honest. While I picked up right after and announced #the-challenge, I don’t think I took the appropriate amount of time to deal with what happened on my own. It became another of what I’ve begun to call “my body count”. ATER, CRVS and ESSC are tickers that I see referenced all the time as massive losses for the community, the people I care about, and it’s starting to haunt me to an extent because it becomes hard to not see only failure. After ESSC I was incredibly excited for #the-challenge and all the good that it was bringing to the community. We were coming together and trading with significant efficiency and profitability and I got to enjoy what had made me love this community in the first place in what had seemed like far too long; watching people making meaningful money.
But then, RSX. This was the blow that drove the final nail. Seeing everyone in pain, again, and being helpless, again, I think was too much and I’ve since been unable to keep my other personal issues from seeping into my work here. I’ve found myself unable to stick to my intuitions and trade effectively which is something that I’ve never had a problem with in the past and rather than continue to try to push forward at detriment to everyone, I think that it’s time that I take the rest that I likely need.
From the bottom of my heart, I apologize for not being the person that the community needs in this moment. However, after some rest, I think that I’ll be ready to take up #the-challenge again with the same drive and diligence that I had in the beginning while pushing the community further towards being in line with my vision.
To clarify, this is just a temporary absence, I’ll probably take a week or two away from the community before becoming active again. Challenge exit notifications will remain enabled so you can see my exits on current plays. Entry notifications will not be enabled however, but you can still track active positions via the command if you’re into that sorta thing, join at your own peril as they’ll essentially all just be “practice”. I’ll be using some of my time to finish a lot of Mimir/Development stuff I’ve had lingering so look for those announcements, one feature being options order flow to offload our friend @Kevin a little.
So with that I think I’ve said everything I’ve needed to say besides: Thank you. This community has been one of my greatest joys in life and the people here mean more to me than is perhaps healthy in a lot of circumstances, but I wouldn’t change a single bit of it. I look forward to being back and really active again in the near future.
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